Whatever your mind can conceive and believe, your mind can achieve.
~W. Clement Stone
Oct 30, 2009
Oct 29, 2009
From a Mountain of Diapers
It's been a long October, and a little off kilter from the usual.
Usually my power month, I've found myself feeling tired, somewhat unsettled, and occasionally cranky. Lots of things have been going on, illness, an upcoming move, a new venture... It has been a wonderful opportunity to observe what hasn't been working very well in my world.
What I know is this: You cannot nourish others when you are running on low or empty. Ideally we give out of our abundance, our overflowing cup. I have been overflowing, and I have been mostly empty. The stark contrast in the feeling states of the two leads to the following conclusion-
If mamma aint happy, nobody is happy.
It's been a call renegotiate the terms of my relationship with myself- down to how many hours a night I need to sleep, the sorts of foods that fuel my body and spirit best, and how much time I need alone, being creative, and with my family and friends. Learning where the self depletion boundary is only part of the equation. It's also about gauging the my inner levels and making adjustments where and when necessary, without feeling guilty about meeting my needs.
That's not an easy one to master, especially when little ones and partners are involved. I remember reading in Conversations with God Book 1 that the path of the householder is the hardest one to achieve mastery on. It's relatively easy to go up to a mountaintop and meditate until enlightenment occurs, but try maintaining an enlightened attitude while changing the diaper on a distraught baby at 3 a.m. and you. are. so. exhausted.
That's the beauty of it, I believe, being able to experience these periods of contrast so you can appreciate those moments so much more when you feel good, aligned and full of life and energy to share with your loved ones. Things are always in flux, changing and shifting and it follows that we do too, over time and in our daily process. This is life, and isn't it glorious, especially when you are well rested?
Now if you'll excuse me....
Usually my power month, I've found myself feeling tired, somewhat unsettled, and occasionally cranky. Lots of things have been going on, illness, an upcoming move, a new venture... It has been a wonderful opportunity to observe what hasn't been working very well in my world.
What I know is this: You cannot nourish others when you are running on low or empty. Ideally we give out of our abundance, our overflowing cup. I have been overflowing, and I have been mostly empty. The stark contrast in the feeling states of the two leads to the following conclusion-
If mamma aint happy, nobody is happy.
It's been a call renegotiate the terms of my relationship with myself- down to how many hours a night I need to sleep, the sorts of foods that fuel my body and spirit best, and how much time I need alone, being creative, and with my family and friends. Learning where the self depletion boundary is only part of the equation. It's also about gauging the my inner levels and making adjustments where and when necessary, without feeling guilty about meeting my needs.
That's not an easy one to master, especially when little ones and partners are involved. I remember reading in Conversations with God Book 1 that the path of the householder is the hardest one to achieve mastery on. It's relatively easy to go up to a mountaintop and meditate until enlightenment occurs, but try maintaining an enlightened attitude while changing the diaper on a distraught baby at 3 a.m. and you. are. so. exhausted.
That's the beauty of it, I believe, being able to experience these periods of contrast so you can appreciate those moments so much more when you feel good, aligned and full of life and energy to share with your loved ones. Things are always in flux, changing and shifting and it follows that we do too, over time and in our daily process. This is life, and isn't it glorious, especially when you are well rested?
Now if you'll excuse me....
Oct 21, 2009
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I just bumped into this quote on Facebook posted by Robert Schienfeld's (author of Busting Loose From the Money Game) niece:
"The Universe doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means... to not know."
I love that. I realize attributing the quote to Robert Schienfeld's niece is less than optimal as I'd love to give credit where credit is due. But in the spirit of not knowing... I have no idea who she is. It's a nice reminder in these busy days and times of uncertainty.
"The Universe doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means... to not know."
I love that. I realize attributing the quote to Robert Schienfeld's niece is less than optimal as I'd love to give credit where credit is due. But in the spirit of not knowing... I have no idea who she is. It's a nice reminder in these busy days and times of uncertainty.
Oct 13, 2009
The Divine Barbeque
I came to believe that Spirit is like a huge tent of love underneath which everyone can fit in peace and harmony. All of humanity can choose to attend the Divine barbecue if they so choose. There may be some folks eating bratwursts, others enjoying corn on the cob, and a small gathering on lawn chairs eating their franks and beans. Everyone is at the same party, yet they are all experiencing it a little differently. Each person can have a great time, especially if one of the party goers forces their choices on the rest of the gang. Just because people have different preferences at the Divine barbecue doesn't make them wrong and me right or vice versa. We're just different. ~from Opening the Kimono by Theresa Rose
Oct 9, 2009
Oct 7, 2009
I am a Writer!
I am taking a writing class this semester at the Loft Literary Center. It is wonderful. I have a sweet little red head teacher, who is beautiful and quiet and deep. She looks like a Celtic Goddess. She is leads us to the pool of the written word, encourages us to dip our toes in the pool and maybe even jump in.
It is refreshing and scary and exciting.
In doing my personal work in the Akashic Records I was told that I needed to embrace the fact that I was a writer. To say it, to think it, and to breathe it. I am a writer. This had never occured to me before! OK, maybe in the fantasies where I am on Oprah discussing my book or opening checks for free lance magazine articles, but really, I hadn't owned it yet.
Never mind that I won a little scholarship for writing in college, or that I had filled about 28 journals in the last 5 years (I write big, but not that big!) or have 2 blogs. I went around for about a week in wonder saying "I am a writer!" I told one of my best friends and she said "And I am a photographer!" (which is true). "No!" I said, "you don't get it! I am a writer!" She said, "Um, yeah? I kinda figured that out in India when you had read 7 books to my 1 and in the amount of time it took me to write 2 pages you had written 15."
Well then. But it is still new and scary and exciting and I still haven't totally claimed it yet. Just last night someone asked me what I did and I said, I am a mommy. I am a healer. I got that stuff down pat. Later I drove away and thought...ooohhh wait a minute. I am a writer! And an artist and a jewelry designer and a muse and a multi Goddess and oh my......
Maybe there is something you are not claiming either. Maybe everyone goes nuts for your cakes and scones and your are hesitant to make some business cards with Patty's Party Pastries on them. Your voice might be itching to sing in a choir or a jazz group, or perhaps there are poems that need to be acted out, danced and screamed from your very being. It could be anything and I am going to put money on it because everyone is born with an amazing and unique talent that no one else has.
So I am thinking, maybe we can write a new chapter for ourselves, you and I.....
It is refreshing and scary and exciting.
In doing my personal work in the Akashic Records I was told that I needed to embrace the fact that I was a writer. To say it, to think it, and to breathe it. I am a writer. This had never occured to me before! OK, maybe in the fantasies where I am on Oprah discussing my book or opening checks for free lance magazine articles, but really, I hadn't owned it yet.
Never mind that I won a little scholarship for writing in college, or that I had filled about 28 journals in the last 5 years (I write big, but not that big!) or have 2 blogs. I went around for about a week in wonder saying "I am a writer!" I told one of my best friends and she said "And I am a photographer!" (which is true). "No!" I said, "you don't get it! I am a writer!" She said, "Um, yeah? I kinda figured that out in India when you had read 7 books to my 1 and in the amount of time it took me to write 2 pages you had written 15."
Well then. But it is still new and scary and exciting and I still haven't totally claimed it yet. Just last night someone asked me what I did and I said, I am a mommy. I am a healer. I got that stuff down pat. Later I drove away and thought...ooohhh wait a minute. I am a writer! And an artist and a jewelry designer and a muse and a multi Goddess and oh my......
Maybe there is something you are not claiming either. Maybe everyone goes nuts for your cakes and scones and your are hesitant to make some business cards with Patty's Party Pastries on them. Your voice might be itching to sing in a choir or a jazz group, or perhaps there are poems that need to be acted out, danced and screamed from your very being. It could be anything and I am going to put money on it because everyone is born with an amazing and unique talent that no one else has.
So I am thinking, maybe we can write a new chapter for ourselves, you and I.....
Oct 6, 2009
Inquiring Minds want to Know
Why is it so hard to ask the tough questions?
We all have got them. Questions that we are afraid to hear the answer to. Questions that make us squirm, cross our legs, and change the subject. Questions that hold power over us, because we are afraid to know.
I saw an episode on one of those dance shows that are wildly popular now. This couple's routine involved the girl fearlessly jumping into her partner's arms. Not just a little jump, but a serious launch into the air with great force. Since I don't watch those shows often and I am not much of a dancer it was initially lost of me. Not on the judges though. They were crying and beside themselves at how magnificently executed and beautiful their dance was.
I have had that image in my head for a while now. Fearless launching into the unknown and completely trusting that you are going to be OK.
I think it's like it with those questions we don't want to ask. I work with questions a lot, as they are at the basis of the Akashic Records work I do. I notice when I am hesitant to ask about a situation or a relationship that always lets me know there is a lot more to the subject than meets the eye. Over time I have began to ask the hard questions. Timidly at first, then with more confidence. It's sort of like starting a running program- it gets easier the more you do it. And guess what? The answers are never scary and I find great solace in having new perspective, as well as clarity.
It's a great place to launch off from.
We all have got them. Questions that we are afraid to hear the answer to. Questions that make us squirm, cross our legs, and change the subject. Questions that hold power over us, because we are afraid to know.
I saw an episode on one of those dance shows that are wildly popular now. This couple's routine involved the girl fearlessly jumping into her partner's arms. Not just a little jump, but a serious launch into the air with great force. Since I don't watch those shows often and I am not much of a dancer it was initially lost of me. Not on the judges though. They were crying and beside themselves at how magnificently executed and beautiful their dance was.
I have had that image in my head for a while now. Fearless launching into the unknown and completely trusting that you are going to be OK.
I think it's like it with those questions we don't want to ask. I work with questions a lot, as they are at the basis of the Akashic Records work I do. I notice when I am hesitant to ask about a situation or a relationship that always lets me know there is a lot more to the subject than meets the eye. Over time I have began to ask the hard questions. Timidly at first, then with more confidence. It's sort of like starting a running program- it gets easier the more you do it. And guess what? The answers are never scary and I find great solace in having new perspective, as well as clarity.
It's a great place to launch off from.
Oct 5, 2009
The Buddha Prince
There are many things I could tell you about the play the Buddha Prince and most of which I will not try.
I cannot sing to you the ghostly joyful Himalayan songs with their impossible words and melodies though they still- weeks later- echo in my head.
I cannot tell you how it was that day to walk the Dalai Lama's journey form village to Lhasa to China to exile with a heart that was simultaneously full of joy and and increasing imminent sense of horror.
What I can try to capture is this: young and old gasped together in delight as they turned and saw a great Imperial dragon bounding down the hill towards then, stopping now and then to kick its 8 legs in playful dance. Dogs barked and babies clapped at the mythical apparition.
Perhaps I can share a glimpse of the child Lama passing his white silk scarf to the actor who would play his older self- foreheads touching in a reverent bow, hands in prayer position as if to say I honor you: who you were, are and will be.
What I will say is this: one perfect golden leaf floated tenderly to the ground against the backdrop of lush green and infinite blue sky. In this moment suspended between laughter and sorrow, heaven and earth, hearts opened as we bore witness to the story of Tibet.
To learn more about the Buddha Prince project and play, visit http://www.buddhaprince.org/ .
I cannot sing to you the ghostly joyful Himalayan songs with their impossible words and melodies though they still- weeks later- echo in my head.
I cannot tell you how it was that day to walk the Dalai Lama's journey form village to Lhasa to China to exile with a heart that was simultaneously full of joy and and increasing imminent sense of horror.
What I can try to capture is this: young and old gasped together in delight as they turned and saw a great Imperial dragon bounding down the hill towards then, stopping now and then to kick its 8 legs in playful dance. Dogs barked and babies clapped at the mythical apparition.
Perhaps I can share a glimpse of the child Lama passing his white silk scarf to the actor who would play his older self- foreheads touching in a reverent bow, hands in prayer position as if to say I honor you: who you were, are and will be.
What I will say is this: one perfect golden leaf floated tenderly to the ground against the backdrop of lush green and infinite blue sky. In this moment suspended between laughter and sorrow, heaven and earth, hearts opened as we bore witness to the story of Tibet.
To learn more about the Buddha Prince project and play, visit http://www.buddhaprince.org/ .
Oct 4, 2009
Whole-ly Lovable
Often I get little snippets of information echoing in my brain. Lately it's been hold everyone- including yourself- in the highest light imaginable. I don't know when I started tuning into it, but I do know once I started thinking about it I started to encounter written words that reiterated that concept to me from several different sources and then practice opportunities began to present themselves.
You have to love and admire the process!
So what does it mean to hold everyone in the highest light possible, including self? Well, for me it manifests itself as giving everyone the benefit of the doubt. I find there is a space between me and the situation in which I can navigate myself into and choose to not take it personal, get my feelings hurt, or respond angrily. (For the record: living in partnership is like class time, most of the time!)
Then there's me. Why is it easier to always look for the bright side of a person or a situation but when it's ourselves, we easily fall into criticism, judgement and use ridiculous standards that no one holds us to? (Though I bet if you listen very closely to the voices in your head you'll find that many of them belong to someone else: a cold grandmother, distant father, or some other adult figure that didn't have it together in your formative years.)
Again and again I meet with clients and the subject of choosing to self mother and nurture comes up. No one is going to do it for us, and for many of us, it was NEVER done. The wounds go deep, and deeper yet is the subconscious ramifications of what it means to have grown up with out a healthy model of what it looks like to love yourself, fabulous and flaws and all.
This is the topic of many books, but for today consider it a little message that you needed to connect to.Hold everyone- including yourself- in the highest light possible. You are whole-ly lovable, as is, right where you are, and always have been.
Much love to your on your journey!
Oct 3, 2009
Oct 2, 2009
Miss New York
I have a new friend. She's from New York and Jewish. She is lovely and clearly not from the Midwest. About a month or two ago I remember telling a friend that I never had any Jewish friends. Not because I didn't want to but I grew up in a cult in South Dakota, so people different from me were few and far between due to religious and geographic restrictions. I also had observed to another friend that I love New Yorkers and how they seemed to be a unique blend of being direct, honest, warm, and funny.
Enter new friend a month later. She is all that and more. I love it when that happens.
The way she speaks her truth is a refreshing point of view and occasionally makes me feel discomfort. Since I believe that everyone is our life is just a creation of ours who a)is there to help us along the path, b) demonstrate something to us as a mirror would, c) or share in a karmic lesson, I know that this discomfort is a big clue to something I haven't learned or integrated fully yet.
Little Miss Midwestern Nice could turn up the volume on her speaking the truth button, if you know what I mean. And now I have this person who mirrors to me how that is done. I feel grateful and infinitely supported on my journey.
So with that, I am going to start writing more in- depth about my journey, my experiences healing, working with energy, the Akashic Records and any other wonderful gifts that fall into my lap. I am confident it will be an interesting and fun ride. And if you don't like it, you can stuff it. Ha ha!
May we all find the courage to speak our truth and use our voice!
Enter new friend a month later. She is all that and more. I love it when that happens.
The way she speaks her truth is a refreshing point of view and occasionally makes me feel discomfort. Since I believe that everyone is our life is just a creation of ours who a)is there to help us along the path, b) demonstrate something to us as a mirror would, c) or share in a karmic lesson, I know that this discomfort is a big clue to something I haven't learned or integrated fully yet.
Little Miss Midwestern Nice could turn up the volume on her speaking the truth button, if you know what I mean. And now I have this person who mirrors to me how that is done. I feel grateful and infinitely supported on my journey.
So with that, I am going to start writing more in- depth about my journey, my experiences healing, working with energy, the Akashic Records and any other wonderful gifts that fall into my lap. I am confident it will be an interesting and fun ride. And if you don't like it, you can stuff it. Ha ha!
May we all find the courage to speak our truth and use our voice!
Oct 1, 2009
Dancing with the Stars
Today is the first day of October. This is my favorite month. Mercury has finally went direct as of Tuesday. Can I get a hell yeah?!!! One thing I learned is that Mercury doesn't actually go backwards in its orbit, it just slows down so much it appears to go backwards.
Well if that isn't an appropriate metaphor!
How many times do I feel like my life or an aspect of it has regressed back to some former pattern I thought I had whipped? Then I realize when I come out of it that I just had slowed waaaay down and couldn't see the progress that had been made. Then the cloud cover lifts and I am light years away again. I think visually it would look like a spiral. There's always that pesky low part that you must have to push off of to move into new unprecedented highs.
Now that Mr Mercury is back to normal, I am feeling very productive. Yesterday I got more done on my to-do list that the previous 2 weeks. I guess that is the way life is, periods of rest with productivity, growth with integration, and so on. It's a wonderful dance and one that is so much easier when you stop looking at your feet, wondering if you are doing it right.
Well if that isn't an appropriate metaphor!
How many times do I feel like my life or an aspect of it has regressed back to some former pattern I thought I had whipped? Then I realize when I come out of it that I just had slowed waaaay down and couldn't see the progress that had been made. Then the cloud cover lifts and I am light years away again. I think visually it would look like a spiral. There's always that pesky low part that you must have to push off of to move into new unprecedented highs.
Now that Mr Mercury is back to normal, I am feeling very productive. Yesterday I got more done on my to-do list that the previous 2 weeks. I guess that is the way life is, periods of rest with productivity, growth with integration, and so on. It's a wonderful dance and one that is so much easier when you stop looking at your feet, wondering if you are doing it right.
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