A gasp of... water!

I almost died today. Well, sortof. No, I didn't go to the tunnel of light or have a life review or anything like that. And I am OK with that. I enjoy hearing other's stories about such things.

Today's adventures found me in the Mediterranean, swimming in the delicious salty water, enjoying the crash of the waves as against my body. The waves, I should add were large, and unbeknownst to me the red flags along the beach signaled dangerous currents. It was so wonderful, letting the waves wash over me, that I got completely carried away- no pun intended. I was blissed out, feeling like a child and really alive, jumping into the waves when I remembered the Abraham- Hicks Law of Attraction* metaphor of setting our boats against the stream and how unproductive that is. I could feel in my body how even tho I was enjoying my fun in the water, it was struggle and I was completely fighting against the power of the sea. I thought "I wonder what it would feel like to go along with the current?"

At a certain point I turned to look at the shore and saw that I had been taken quite some distance from the beach. I couldn't see my daughter at all, in fact everyone looked small. I was really far out. I started to tread towards the shore, but found I was powerless against the waves which at that point were huge. I couldn't touch bottom either. It was like my mind split in two. In one half, there was semi-panic: Oh my God, how will I get to shore? An old tape started to play in my head of a similar experience I had when I was 10, which was scary and embarassing. And, what about my baby? I can't die on her!!! The other side of my mind said calmly: It's not your time to die yet. Trust the waves to bring you to shore. They are strong and there is no doubt that they will bring you home.

A large wave overtook me and filled my mouth with water. I went under for what felt like forever. ANGELS!!! I came up and got tossed under again. HELP!!! I knew no one could hear me though, and I was still far away. This happened another time. Violently taken under, and coming up gasping for air, mouth full of water. This is how people die, I thought. A third time I went under. I was starting to feel very tired, for all my attempts at swimming and staying afloat were draining me of energy.

And then a wave picked me up and threw me 7 or 8 feet. And then another, and another. And though I still couldn't touch bottom, there was a rhythm to it. I relaxed a bit, and despite feeling exhausted, I knew I was out of the worst of it, and went along with the waves. After a while I touched the glorious bottom. Slowly I made my way to shore. Exhausted, humbled, and safe. Amen!

Upon reflecting on things, a few thoughts occurred to me. No, not what the heck was I doing? and Oh, that was a whistle I heard! (that all came later) but WOW. Talk about instant manifestation. There I was, in the sea thinking things like how all the answers and possibilities in the universe are contained within, in fact in one simple drop of water because it's all the same, and other thoughts of a rather quantum nature. This followed by, hey, what would it feel like to go with the flow? Ask and you shall receive! And what about those people who really do feel like they are drowning, because they are fighting against what appears to be raging waves that leave them weak and exhausted? Well you could take my story and go all night and make parallels and insights and metaphors, and I invite you to do so, if so inclined.

I am going to bed, with a grateful heart: I am alive.

*for more info on The Law of Attraction I highly recommend Ask and It is Given by Abraham- Hicks. Life changing stuff!