Reactive Mode

I am learning to live in reactive mode.


This is new for me. Instead of trying to make things happen, plan, project into the future, and attempting to control things, I am waiting to see what shows up in my life from moment to moment and then deciding what feels right to do in response.

The criteria is: would this bring my joy? What feels good?


I will be the first to admit that after a lifetime of living exactly the opposite way (what do I HAVE to do today? What SHOULD I be doing right now?) there is a bit of discomfort and weirdness about it. .

What I am noticing after doing this for a week or so is that my energies feel so much more balanced. Since I am only doing things that I choose to do, I don't feel put out. I can't complain about anything that happens during the day because it's all of my choosing!


Interestingly there are things that typically are resisted (dishes, housework, gym, paying the bills, etc) on a regular basis that do have times that I naturally gravitate towards them. And everything seems to get done, just the same, though with a much lighter heart.


Even the bathroom.