Contractual Healing

Today I was reading an article in The Edge about how essentially we need to heal our sexual wounds to align with the energy shifts that are taking place. http://soulofthecities.net/2009/06/coming-energy-shifts/

I would say that we need to heal our sexual wounds period, because being wounded is a) no fun b) non productive and c) limiting to the enjoyment of life.

I know, because I too, was sexually abused as a child.

The author made a comment in regards to the contracts that we take out when we choose to come to the Earth plane, and experiencing difficulty of any sort is one way that we facillitate growth. Perpetuating difficulty is another element of entering into contracts with others. Some people go through their entire life being mean, nasty and rude because that's the role they have choosen to play, to help those around them work through whatever issues they want to explore.

I know, right? That's quite a concept. And it applies to everyone, including (I am going to make it personal here) the person who abused me. Wow. As a Divine being, he choose to perpetuate this act with profound and deep implications for both of our souls to experience growth.

It sheds new light on the subject, and also opens a space for various feelings: compassion (imagine agreeing to do something that would hurt another's soul, and knowing it would cause soul damage to you too!), forgiveness (it is easier to let things go when you know the person was acting in your interests or honoring your wishes), and gratitude (the final stage of healing- knowing that everything is working out perfectly, none of our experiences are in vain, and can serve us well if we allow them too).

The discussion of contracts is long and wide. So too is healing from abuse of any sort. These statements might sound crazy to you, or they may make you angry. I know I would have thrown the laptop across the room a few years ago if someone would have dared to suggest that I was a victim of sexual abuse because I wanted to experience growth and had signed up for it. It would have pissed me off for days.

But healing is funny- it can't be pegged and refuses to sit in a box. It is fluid and dynamic and can happen all at once, or in layers, as old hurts are pulled away, and new insights take their place. It is different for everyone.

Whatever stage you are in of your healing, I honor you and send love to light your way.